Wednesday, October 26, 2011


Has life left you thirsty? I have been left thirsty many times in my life, but i've never felt so satisfied as I have the past year. Since September 2010 I have made minor changes in my everyday life that have created MAJOR chnages to me. I gave up trying to solve my problems- I gave it all to God. I have never felt so relieved and overall happy and satisfied in my life as I have this past year. I've had some major issues come up and not that I always do what's right or handle situations properly, but God has been there and carried me through. I've lost a baby this pregnancy and have been astranged from family and through it all i haven't felt thirsty, i've felt quenched

I feel confident in my choices that have led me to where I am today. I have a supportive group of friends and family, I have found a new way to look at love in my life. I can love my husband and daughter with more than I ever thought I could. I still deal with depression and anxiety but not to the extent I did over a year ago. When I am harassed and picked apart I don't react with the anger and violence that once controlled my emotions. Through trusting God, he has made a new me, a better me. I know my struggles aer not over, and I know that I will continue to fall short and screw up, but I have confidence that the more I trust God to lead me I can continue to be overall satisfied, quenched. I may not be thristy, but I hope I always have the thirst I need to crave God. To crave the good.

Psalm 23:6   Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

Loving and leaving

When is it okay to give up? Or is it really giving up at all? When you are put in situations that are out of control or over controlled when is it okay to back out? We are all given families. Our families are made up of biological parents and grandparents, adoptive or step parents and siblings, or sometimes the families we are given don't stick around and our families are made up of friends or even complete strangers. Ultimately we are supposed to love and respect our families, take care of and be taken care of.

In my life I'm in a rough, stressful spot. Whether to leave and love them or stay and fight. It seems the less contact I have, the more I can appreciate and love them. When I am forced into a relationship so unsteady, an emotional rollercoaster for everyone involved and around, it's easier to back out. When the truth is being ignored and twisted to fit, there's no use arguing. When someone argues complete facts, whether they are blind or just choose to ignore to fit what they want to be, it's impossible. Nor can you argue with someone that continues to place all the blame on one person and completely ignores any others involvement in a situation or problem. They can believe or think whatever they want- it's very true to them, but not always true to life and what really happened. It may make them feel better about the way they are acting and reacting to the situation.

When someone continues to persue you and use God against you, listen to God. Not always what the person throws at you but what you read. Responding never helps- arguing your point never works. Rest assured God has laid out many-a scripture for you to take refuge in.

Proverbs (10.19) when words are many, sin is not absent, but he who holds his tongue is wise. (12.15) the way of a fool seems right to him, but a wise man listens to advice.

Just because they are saying God wants you to love and respect your family it doesn't mean you have to sit back and take harassment and lies or put yourself back into the unstable relationship that continues to cause sooo many problems. If you can make peace with your decisions in your heart and with God, then let go. It still hurts to read and hear the nasty rumors and lies that they want people to belive, but as long as you live your life on the right path it will show to the people that matter. Judgments on my actions by people cannot hurt me unless I let them. God will judge me, and since I have a close personal relationship with God he knows exactly how I feel, what I feel, and when I cry out to him for the right answers he helps guide me. I make my own decisions with God's help. Take comfort in that. The devil can use people around you to break- think about it, the emotions and reactions you feel- are they from God or are they devil-driven?? God allows you to be tested, but he wants you to pass, resist the devil- in whatever form he may have.

Friday, September 30, 2011

adventures in mothering- MOPS book quotes

I read a MOPS book this summer and I picked out a few quotes that really stuck out to me. I'll have to get the book out so people can read it, it was amazing, and it made me feel a little bit normal when it came to some of the emotions we run into mothering, or parenting in general.

**Enjoy your kids while they are at home, they are the best years of your life

**A change in perspective can turn your thinking around

** As moms we crave control and rarely have it

**Mothering is an adventure, an ongoing process of growing

**Showing our kids Jesus through our actions

**As your children change- your mothering habits must as well

** We all want to be balanced, better moms

**We all get angry, tired and fed up

**We depend too much on undependable things- God is dependable and trustworthy- Depend on Him

The book talked alot about the many roles we have daily; mothers, daughters, wives, friends, etc and how we can stay in touch with ourselves, the person we are, instead of leaving ourselves behind to be "just moms". I know I've done it and for way too long- I have put Bella first; above me, above my husband, and above God, now im working everyday to find that "balance". Bella needs me, so does my husband, and Lord knows I need some time for myself, and most of all, I need God.

Thursday, September 29, 2011

LOVE matters MOST

Here are some sayings about LOVE:

***Life is all about LOVE

***Learn to LOVE unselfishly

***God wants his family to be known for its LOVE more than anything

***LOVE God
LOVE people

***LOVE leaves a legacy

***You can give without loving, but you cannot LOVE without giving

***Whenever you give your time, you are making a sacrifice, and sacrifice is the essence of LOVE

-top priority
-primary objective
-greatest ambition
-driving force

***The essence of LOVE is not what we think or do or provide for others, but how much we give of ourselves

How to bring Glory to God

There's a new song on the Joy FM saying in all you do you can bring glory to God. So what are some ways to bring Him the glory??

*Worshipping Him
      - motivated by LOVE, Thanksgiving and Delight (NOT DUTY)
      - worship is a lifestyle

*Loving other believers
       -learn to LOVE as God does

*Becoming like Christ
      -develop CHRISTlike character

*Serving others with our gifts
      - our gifts are for the benefit of others

*Telling others about HIM
       -introducing others to Jesus, help them discover purpose, preparing them for eternal destiny

Do Good.

"Do all the good you can, by all the means you can, in all the places you can, at all the times you can, to all the people you can, for as long as you can." -John Wesley

If only this were a motto that all people lived by. Can you imagine everyone being good, doing good, all the time? Jesus did. He spent his life in ministry loving people, loving everyone. He did good, in every way he could, in all the places he could, at every time he could, for all the people he could, for as long as he could. *Which happens to be forever, He gave his life to save us. The ultimate gift, He did good for all the people who do bad.* His goodness should flow out of us like rays of SON. Reaching out wherever you, Do Good. Random acts of kindness could be the only "God" people see. This doesn't always mean using your mouth to speak of Jesus, actions can speak louder than words. It's the GOOD deeds they see and can't understand. It's the kind words they may not deserve that make them think. It's the LOVE you show for everyone that they want more of. Do Good.

Thursday, June 30, 2011

But he who has been forgiven little loves little

Luke 7: 36-50
47) Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven- for she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little.

This won't have the best wording but, a very wise person once said:
      When you realize how big of a sinner you are, and how much sin plays a part in your life- the bigger Jesus can be in your life.

He reaches out to the sick and broken, weak and lost. When you come to the realization that you are a sinner and the ways of the world aren't working, when you're looking for more Jesus is there reaching to you. He looks past those who are self righteous and toward the humble. When we realize that we need his forgiveness we can humble ourselves. There is nothing we can do to earn it. It is a free gift. Accept it now.